In need of the forgiveness to flow through me.
It’s impossible joy to not have it in me.
The weather beats me.
And the rain has more laughter and joy than I do.
It has one job and it does it effortlessly.
I have one job and I struggle on it daily.
Forgive me Father, for my inability.
To reach out to you when in need.
Sombering in my flaws.
Eating up the space for You to be in.
There are days where there's complete happiness and sadness.
A pit fall of confusion.
There are moments when there's pure joy.
Those that move you, so much that you have to react.
There are other times when I wake to complete sadness.
Where my heart pains in the sight of daylight.
Times when I wake and sing some random words in expression of joy.
There are moments where I can't remember a why.
For anything of everything.
There are moments where I need to cry.
Cry the tears that my soul calls for, but my mind does not comprehend.
There are moments where I need to jump because of happiness.
Scream and dance to another day.
These are all moments in my day.
Some vary from day to day.
Others are from moment to moment.
And in some, from hours and minutes.
Moments of my mind and my heart,
In a fierce battle to control.
The emotions that makes me on a daily basis.
It's just normal.
To go threw life undecided.
To wander across times and years.
With no aim.
Society places levels and achievements.
Stumble across your desires in your wanders.
Nothing bad, at all.
To not wanting the first option.
The year has ended and a new has come,
Does it have good intentions?
The last was awful!
Nothing to miss.