Category Archives: Thoughts

There Is No Way

There is no way to know the truth.
The pain and the rain of tears coming down.

There is no way to figure out why.
The flash flood of tears.

There is no way you will ever know.
The the pain in me has to do because of you.

I only look one way.
In hopes that He will help me through.
Through, the sorrows, misunderstandings, tears, pains.

- Ruptes

A Dried Heart

There are days where nothing is what you think.
When everything falls and shatters.
Nothing remains whole. 

The heart splashes to the ground.
Shattering rather than splatting.
It is dried from the burden of pain. 

Breaking to many pieces.
Going in every direction.
Repair seems likely impossible.

When Life is breathed into it.
It's now malleable.
Allowing it to fall, splatter, and stretch.

Never breaking again...

- Ruptes

He Never Left ME There

I sink and I vanish 
In the deep see of my thoughts 
The place where I linger 
the most
no movement 

I get the One that understand 
There with me to the end 
A call and with sound knows 
Where I stand 
Gets into the perfect position 

Countering negativity 
Pulling me by the hand
because the words were muffled 
and the drowning noticeable 
Because He never left me there

- Ruptes

Quote #6

And the world is only concerned with itself.

Amazing how it never vows otherwise.

Ruptes

Each Morning

I can wake in pain, 
back, legs, hip 
something extraordinary 
Opening the eyes
seeing you brings joy
Hearing you causes a dance 
what pain did I say? 
 there is nothing to feel here 
just the joy of your voice 
 the beauty of your face.

- Ruptes 

In My Desperation

In my desperation. There You was. 
Countering every thought with laughter. 
Injecting every moment with joy. 

In my desperation I pushed You away.
Regardless of the moments.
I moved away. 

Also, in my desperation.
I came back to You. 
I realized it's worst without You.  

- Ruptes

A Calling Card

There is a calling card. It never expires.

One that I use constantly. Because I need.

A relationship with You, requires a me.

To use the calling card to speak to You.

Ruptes

Forgive Me

In need of the forgiveness to flow through me.

It’s impossible joy to not have it in me.

The weather beats me.

And the rain has more laughter and joy than I do.

It has one job and it does it effortlessly.

I have one job and I struggle on it daily.

Forgive me Father, for my inability.

To reach out to you when in need.

Sombering in my flaws.

Eating up the space for You to be in.

The Brightest

Like the brightest lamp post

In the middle of the street

In the darkest of nights

Just it

That’s you and me to the world

When He is with us.

You Against You

There can never be a bigger blockage than that of what you give yourself. 
You are the one that can hold yourself back more than anyone can try. 
Because if you do not have believe in yourself, 
Faith in what you can do, 
Then you do not want to do. Which is worst than someone going against you. 
Because you went against yourself from the start. 

- Ruptes

Crying

There will be crying.
But it will be tears of pain.
With that pain, there will be joy.
Brought to our realm.
Our world.

- Ruptes

Feels

There has been many thoughts in me. 

How do I go to put this into words. 

These thoughts consume me. 

They are the small spark in the middle of me. 

How can I go about it? All I want to do is sit and cry.
Let out this pain that I am not able to figure out where it sleeps. 

Within me it lives and when it comes to the light it consumes me.
How can I be the best of me when I still have this? 

How can there be a better me - ever- when it is still; there somewhere. 

I am looking for it and I can't seem to find it. 
Maybe, I should let it out free to consume me.

Because when I look for it, it evades me.