Tag: anxiety

• Broken

  

  I am not sure how to fix myself. See, I feel broken. I am not sure when it happened. That moment for me is uncertain. What I do know is that I don’t know how to heal it. I am still here hoping.That one day I can fix myself from being broken.- Ruptes

  Ruptes

  March 13, 2022

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• Indiscriminate Actions of Life

  

  The unfairness of life. Never ceases to amaze.How the good lay victims to its wrath.Their acts of kindness ignored.Doing for everyone. All that others looked over. The unfairness of life. Taking away those that should stay. Ripping apart and leaving pain. Never ceases to amaze.How it leaves all the evil. Enjoying all its days. The […]

  Ruptes

  March 6, 2022

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• Captivating Sleep

  

  Last night I cried to sleep. It’s been a long time since so. The feeling was out of body. A complete decompress.Everything was pressing and nothing was releasing. Like a child pinching it’s finger. I cried so much. She didn’t hear me. Yet she laid there,Next to me. Sleeping in peace. While I prayed for […]

  Ruptes

  March 6, 2022

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• Underdog

  

  Just the understanding dog. The one not taken seriously. You know the failure. That’s me. The one dealt a set of cards. Played them horribly. Wrecked my life’s saving plan. – Ruptes

  Ruptes

  February 24, 2022

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• Itself

  

  The mind.Captive to itself.Rebellion to itself. Destructive to itself. Hostage to itself. Painful to itself. You’re nothing to it.Nothing without it.Just a capsule. – Ruptes

  Ruptes

  February 22, 2022

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• There Not Here

  

  You came here. Then you went over there. Right back over here. Then you leave me here and go over there. Where? Why leave me here? Desolate. No love. No air. That time or this time or another time again. I thought it a return. For love, not despair. Fumes for love. Toxic air. – […]

  Ruptes

  February 19, 2022

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• Storied Life

  

  Storied time.In a storied life. About the horrid-fied.life o lies. A battle in time.A stammer dime.The hammered lies.Brain-afied. It’s those subtle lies. In which rattles high. And through time. Ranges high.Baffle time. Becoming storied time.In a storied life.- Ruptes

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  February 18, 2022

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• Prisoner of Mind

  

  The living space. Of the living days. The willful praise. Of the willing reign.Reach out and conquer. Bring about your rage. Though in another world.This one is full of lies and pain. It is in it that we drown. What’s swimming to white rafts?Look outside the world of your mind.In it you’re a prisoner to […]

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  February 14, 2022

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• Freedom

  Freedom from your thoughts, is the real freedom you need. If you’re a slave to your mind what difference is the freedom granted to you? – Ruptes

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  July 28, 2020

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• Never Felt

  I’ve never feared missing something.Or someone so much until.I felt that I lost them.

  Ruptes

  July 27, 2020

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• Toast To My Mind

  Toasting to the mind that I have, It only knows how to cause me panic,Anxiety, and pain. Toasting to the death you are giving me,Not the great job you do.

  Ruptes

  July 20, 2020

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• Impossible To Know

  There is no way that any one can know If I cry – is it always sadness? Inpossible to know. I say. I am always happy. These tears scream JOY, even if it comes out in pain.

  Ruptes

  June 1, 2020

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