There is no way to know the truth.
The pain and the rain of tears coming down.
There is no way to figure out why.
The flash flood of tears.
There is no way you will ever know.
The the pain in me has to do because of you.
I only look one way.
In hopes that He will help me through.
Through, the sorrows, misunderstandings, tears, pains.
- Ruptes
Tag Archives: emotions
A Dried Heart
There are days where nothing is what you think. When everything falls and shatters. Nothing remains whole. The heart splashes to the ground. Shattering rather than splatting. It is dried from the burden of pain. Breaking to many pieces. Going in every direction. Repair seems likely impossible. When Life is breathed into it. It's now malleable. Allowing it to fall, splatter, and stretch. Never breaking again... - Ruptes
Each Morning
I can wake in pain, back, legs, hip something extraordinary Opening the eyes seeing you brings joy Hearing you causes a dance what pain did I say? there is nothing to feel here just the joy of your voice the beauty of your face. - Ruptes
Staying The Path
I have lost traction to my path I am slipping and sliding on it Barely able to keep in place Difficult to stay the way It takes more effort to go forward Than to allow myself to fall out of it The fear of staying behind Falling into the darkness And losing site of the Light Doesn't allow for me to stay the path I must compose myself Learn to trust the slow and steady Simple and easy Cautious and attentive way Keeps me safe in the path Regardless of mud and water Darkness and fear That comes from time to time. - Ruptes
Shedding The Tears
To the days that rain,
I thank you for shedding the tears.
Because it shows me that crying is ok.
Natures cries some days.
It helps other places.
Not just the negative.
Crying is reviving.
It’s the beginning of a new beginning.
A New more invigorating start.
Coming down from above
And moving out from within.
- Ruptes
In My Desperation
In my desperation. There You was. Countering every thought with laughter. Injecting every moment with joy. In my desperation I pushed You away. Regardless of the moments. I moved away. Also, in my desperation. I came back to You. I realized it's worst without You. - Ruptes
A Calling Card
There is a calling card. It never expires.
One that I use constantly. Because I need.
A relationship with You, requires a me.
To use the calling card to speak to You.
Ruptes
No Me Without You
Turning to You, for everything that makes me. There is nothing in me that can be without a You.
Ruptes
That Is Everyone
Meager soul.
In desperado mode.
In need.
That is everyone.
Ruptes
Forgive Me
In need of the forgiveness to flow through me.
It’s impossible joy to not have it in me.
The weather beats me.
And the rain has more laughter and joy than I do.
It has one job and it does it effortlessly.
I have one job and I struggle on it daily.
Forgive me Father, for my inability.
To reach out to you when in need.
Sombering in my flaws.
Eating up the space for You to be in.
Roller Coaster
Like a roller coaster you go.
Up or down in emotions.
And never steady for too long.
Like a roller coaster.
You run through your emotions to quick.
Without settling on one.
Passing by you like a blurr.
- Ruptes
Wreckage
Side step the world baby,
Just move to the side.
See those things coming?
They’re emotions.
They would’ve hit you.
Wreckage.
- Ruptes
