There is no way to know the truth.
The pain and the rain of tears coming down.
There is no way to figure out why.
The flash flood of tears.
There is no way you will ever know.
The the pain in me has to do because of you.
I only look one way.
In hopes that He will help me through.
Through, the sorrows, misunderstandings, tears, pains.
There are days where nothing is what you think. When everything falls and shatters. Nothing remains whole. The heart splashes to the ground. Shattering rather than splatting. It is dried from the burden of pain. Breaking to many pieces. Going in every direction. Repair seems likely impossible. When Life is breathed into it. It's now malleable. Allowing it to fall, splatter, and stretch. Never breaking again... - Ruptes
And the world is only concerned with itself.
Amazing how it never vows otherwise.Ruptes
I can wake in pain, back, legs, hip something extraordinary Opening the eyes seeing you brings joy Hearing you causes a dance what pain did I say? there is nothing to feel here just the joy of your voice the beauty of your face. - Ruptes
I have lost traction to my path I am slipping and sliding on it Barely able to keep in place Difficult to stay the way It takes more effort to go forward Than to allow myself to fall out of it The fear of staying behind Falling into the darkness And losing site of the Light Doesn't allow for me to stay the path I must compose myself Learn to trust the slow and steady Simple and easy Cautious and attentive way Keeps me safe in the path Regardless of mud and water Darkness and fear That comes from time to time. - Ruptes
To the days that rain,
I thank you for shedding the tears.
Because it shows me that crying is ok.
Natures cries some days.
It helps other places.
Not just the negative.
Crying is reviving.
It’s the beginning of a new beginning.
A New more invigorating start.
Coming down from above
And moving out from within.
In my desperation. There You was. Countering every thought with laughter. Injecting every moment with joy. In my desperation I pushed You away. Regardless of the moments. I moved away. Also, in my desperation. I came back to You. I realized it's worst without You. - Ruptes
There is a calling card. It never expires.
One that I use constantly. Because I need.
A relationship with You, requires a me.
To use the calling card to speak to You.Ruptes
Turning to You, for everything that makes me. There is nothing in me that can be without a You.Ruptes
In desperado mode.
That is everyone.Ruptes
In need of the forgiveness to flow through me.
It’s impossible joy to not have it in me.
The weather beats me.
And the rain has more laughter and joy than I do.
It has one job and it does it effortlessly.
I have one job and I struggle on it daily.
Forgive me Father, for my inability.
To reach out to you when in need.
Sombering in my flaws.
Eating up the space for You to be in.
Like the brightest lamp post
In the middle of the street
In the darkest of nights
That’s you and me to the world
When He is with us.